我到底要的是什么？？？？

今天我的毛病又来了。又开始乱乱想了。为什么每次都是那样。我要的是什么。之前还很清楚。知道我要的是什么。但是到了这边开始乱了。我的心只有害怕和担心。到了现在我还在找打答案。想要找个人诉苦都不知道找谁。越来越没信心了。每次到这个时候都会哭。今天又哭了。。。咳。。。

心情很乱

这几天发生了很多事。我的心情也变的乱七八糟。根本都不能开心起来。不是很压力就是心情有点不对劲。从来没有好好休息过。从来没有烦恼过。每天都是那样过。我不知道我的方向是什么。我的目标是什么。每次都会莫名奇妙一个人哭。我到底该这么办?我乱了。。。完全没有信心了。好怕接下来的日子。我能度过那些难关吗？每次都是被人家的话吓到。。然后就会没信心了。当初的坚强不知道去哪里了。当初的我跟现在的我有点不一样。变得很脆弱。但是就在昨晚的有个医生就告诉我们说不要埋怨什么。神的恩典是完美的。他对每个人都是公平的。他绝对会给最好的安排。在那时我就想起我之前所面对的困难。而我今天已经熬过那些难题了。当时就突然间好像又有希望了。感觉其实当你感到压力时是有人会帮你祈祷。因为他们都爱你。还有我们亲爱的天父，祂永远会陪在我们身边。所以我就把一切交给神了。我觉得这是神给我的答案。因为这几天我真的乱了。每天都一直祈祷。求主帮助我。应该是神回答我的问题了。所以我很感恩很感谢主。希望大家也要多多祈祷因为我们爱的天父永远都在我 们的身边。从来没有离开过。

闷

今天是deepavali所以学校放假。。。从昨天到星期六都是放假。。。虽然有很多assignments 和考试要准备但是当读到或是做到累时就会觉得很闷。。。好多websites被 block。。。facebook只能在晚上玩。。。好无聊啊。。。

Terrible day...

前两天，我呢病了。而且还病的很严重。。。我叻一直吐。。。会吐好几次。。。去了厕所很多次。。。到最后吐出来的是水。吐也吐到累了。。。更惨的是我还发烧。。。37.7。。。结果去看了医生。。。吃了医生给的药。。。有比较好了。。。不然我怎么能在这里blogging呢？。。。哈哈。。。考试快要到了。。。跟assignments在一起。。。希望不要再生病了。。。要好好读书。。。

今天心情有点乱。。。jpa 到现在都还不能查。。。due date是7.10.2011.。。那就是这个星期五。。。如果有中我哪有时间去处理啊。。。jpa 的web 到底是怎么了。。。我没那么多时间啦。。。还有很多东西要做和读啦。。。烦恼叻。。。如果没中就让我知道吧。。。这样等很烦叻。。。拜托~~~~

今天很奇怪。。。突然间很想家。。。可能是因为功课和assignment很多吧。。。最近有开始烦恼了。。。压力。。。每次都是觉得时间不够。。。都没时间读书。。。功课又很多。。。又要忙activities。。。不去又不行。。。大学生活不容易啊。。。等我回到家一定要好好休息。。。sarikei， 我很想你哦。。。

Sarawak Gathering

今晚玩的很开心。。。笑到累了。。。想知道发生什么事吗？。。让我慢慢告诉你们吧。。今晚是sarawak gathering..全部来自sarawak的华人聚集在一起。。。我们去了一个华人餐厅吃大餐。。。吃的很饱。。而且还有猪肉呢。。。很好吃。。。我们还一起唱歌。。。唱了童话和朋友。。。好有华人的感觉。。。非常开心。。。感谢主给我机会去认识更多的朋友，让彼此的关系越来越好。。。学长和学姐们，真的很谢谢你们。。。你们对我们所说过的话我们一定会记住的。。。就像有个学长说“不管你们读书读到很辛苦或是觉得很难，绝不要放弃。。一定要坚持。。。” 这句话给了我力量和鼓励。。。希望我不会那么容易倒下。。。大家都要一起加油哦。。。各位， 晚安咯。。。

我们爱因为神先爱我们。。。这句话让我感到很感恩，很感谢。。。昨晚我去了崇拜。。。好感谢主因为我能去这个崇拜。。。原本是不能去的但是感谢神给我力量去解决我的事。。。所以我还是能去崇拜了。。。去了这个崇拜我认识了很多人。。。交了很多新朋友。。。感觉很不错。。。很开心。。。因为我们都是一起敬拜神。。。作晚唱了一首歌叫love will make a difference..当我们唱的时候我们就彼此拥抱。。。在那时我突然间流眼泪。。。不知道为什么。。太感动吧。。因为在那时有个学姐跟我说“你一定会喜欢这里的”。。。就是这样莫名奇妙哭了。。。哈哈。。有点笨吧。。。好感谢学长和学姐们，他们真的很照顾junior。。。有了你们给我们的爱和鼓励，我相信我们会一起加油的。。。God will make a way where there seems to be no way...一起加油吧朋友们。。。

hi。。。我又回来了。。。今天心情不是很好。。。那是因为我发觉到原来有那么多东西要读啊。。。每次要读的时候又要忙这个忙那个。。。要不然就是开始爱睡。。。assignment又很多。。。烦恼这个烦恼那个。。。每次回到宿舍就很累了。。。明天还要忙着做身体检查。。。这样的忙碌日子快快过吧。。。

My sharing

Hi, everyone...is been a long time i didnt update my blog le...my uni life has been started around 3 weeks..bt i hvn share my uni life yet...nw i am going too share a bit ba...4 my orientation week, my feeling is like 'rojak'...haha..this is because sometimes i felt happy, sometimes felt moody and sometimes no feeling..i felt happy because i made a lot of new frens here...n the most important thing is i found that there are a lot of sarawakian here...i even met one girl who is from betong...haha....n during that 1st week, i really miss my home so much...i miss my mummy, daddy, my everything in my hometown lo...haha...i admit i gt cry that time...haha...i start my lecture class on the 2nd week..at 1st, i nt really get use 2 it because we all study in a big lecture hall...n the lecturer juz bli bla bli bla...n i really nid 2 pay 100% attention..if nt i will miss those important things...bt sometimes i feel vry sleepy o...At kelantan here, friday n saturday r weekends....so i go to church on thursday nite..haha...a bit nt xi guan...on the 3rd week, i went 2 jerteh, terengganu 4 kursus pimpin siswa...all 1st years students must join this kem..i have learnt a lot of things during this kem..1st , i learnt to build up my tent..quite interesting o..Secondly, i learnt to cook without using the cooking gas...juz use matches only...Next, this was my first time to have jungle trekking in the early morning...we went into the jungle around 3am over ba...was quite scary la....i juz cn c the shadow of the tress...i juz hold my fren's hand tightly so that i will nt gt lost...actually it was a great experience 4 me....after joining this kem, i have make mny new frens again....they are all vry funny...Next, i m going to talk about the food at kelantan here...actually i really dun like the food here lo...everyday kari, nasi lemak lo....those food have same colours which are red, yellow n orange lo....so sometimes i juz take my oat as my meal lo...i really miss my mum's cook vry vry much...i think i juz stop sharing until here ba...my dear all frens, i wish u all cn enjoy ur uni life n the most important is must study hard ya...dun make ur parents feel disappointed...thats all from me...n lastly "Daddy Mummy, i really miss u all so much.."...bye...

I'm coming back again

Is quite a long time i didn't write blog le...nw i start continue 2 write again..emmm....actually i don't have any special things to write...juz simply scribble only...time really pass so fast..i still have around 2 months in sarikei only...so i gonna use this 2 months wisely....nw i start 2 prepare things that i have to bring when enter U...i'm vry curious about USMKK there...hope everything is going smoothly when reach there...hope i cn be brave n believe myself i can do it...i hope my frens uso cn do it..no matter where they go..God, continue 2 grant us Your wisdom n courage..continue 2 guide us n bless us so that we all cn continue our life journey...becoz we all dunno our future..bt we all believe You will prepare a  way 4 us...i'm sure that You will prepare a path 4 us...so we all will continue 2 follow You...let us believe ourselves that we cn do it...^.^